Impact of Break Up – My Affairs with Words

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“There’s no such thing as complete when it comes to stories. Stories are infinite. They are as infinite as worlds.” ― Kelly Barnhill

My peppy affairs with my words. My feelings expressed in ink and I love to play with words. Pain of losing love…moving out of love for the sake of love.

Read two poems of mine which speaks of the anguish the lover feels for her Valentine…emotions expressed of separation in love.

Poem I

I dint knew when my
heart rippled

For you

To make you mine
forever

And before I could brood
of anything else,

The first thing I
visualized

I nurtured a deep
crush

For you

My Fantastico.

My request to walk

Hand in hand

Went unheeded.

You breached my heart

Declining the appeal

Ripping apart

The Strings of my
heart.

It was tough to
regain back

My poise

But was fine,

Never adventured hard
for a Yes,

Neither was she ever
my grade,

My life faded

Listening the music
of denial.

Thoughts overwhelmed
my mind

Impact was on my mind

To navigate on the
wrong way

To jump onto her to
blame

And

Take out my negation.

I almost fell in that
pit

Ready to emote

To expose her life

Then

A sincere thought

Grazed my mind

Dusting off

The unwanted emotions.

Realization dawned

She was my baby

My happiness

My love.

She wasn’t the one to
be charged

It was me to be damned

Who hurled abuses?

Creating

Ruckus &
confusion

Deciphering

The words

Which wasn’t meant
for her.

Life was no game

We had our
aspirations

We had our dream

And in a world where
we germinated

Was non-existent for
sweet feelings

But for status &
successes.

I promised

To make my life

Wonderful

Accepting the
challenges

I infused

My life

With gold

And

Request her

To accept my
invitation

Now

I was worth her life

Bewitched

With Riches &
fame.

Poem II

I lay down in my dreams,

And feel you right by my side,

I open my eyes,

I feel you just passed by like a tide,

I wish I could be there,

Only with you,

In the green meadows & when the sky is blue.

You make me shudder,

When the sky goes dim,

I just can’t take it anymore,

I just miss that gleam,

You make me feel so bad,

Which I’ve never been,

It’s just for you,

That I’ve so stupid been.

I want you back like anything,

Coz I miss you around like everything,

The glitter in your eyes,

Lit up my every wound,

I know you don’t hate me,

But you pretend,

I just don’t wanna see you,

As you like to tend,

Am not so bad,

It was just a mistake,

I really dint moaned It,

Nor I was any day a fake,

I take it to be my fate,

That you’re not here.

I still love you the way,

I did before,

I know there are no hopes,

But I keep navigating,

The days keep moving & I take it on,

The pain, the drugs & the shrugs,

This is all what I’ve been,

& it’s just for you,

That I have been,

I know it all,

You won’t be back again,

It’s just like that,

I never wanna love again….

You were my past,

You are my present,

You are still missed,

As I ever did then.

You are

My Fantastico.

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By Ila Varma

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