It
was my first day of college…I was very nervous, had heard many stories from
friends and seniors about ragging at colleges and freshers were supposed to
regard their seniors and to fully surrender to their demands…I was bit
different from others blunt…Outspoken…difficult to surrender…this thought
was completely eating me…I was ardent to join the college…everything fresh
was waiting for me to start life…new environment…freedom. (In schools we
have to maintain a lot of decorum…discipline) Whole night I was wide awake
and the thought of stepping into the college sent shivers along my spine…I
had never ever thought that I could feel bounties of pangs…I was ready before
time..Sky blue suit and matching earrings…had to look simple so that eyes of
seniors could not locate me in the crowds
was my first day of college…I was very nervous, had heard many stories from
friends and seniors about ragging at colleges and freshers were supposed to
regard their seniors and to fully surrender to their demands…I was bit
different from others blunt…Outspoken…difficult to surrender…this thought
was completely eating me…I was ardent to join the college…everything fresh
was waiting for me to start life…new environment…freedom. (In schools we
have to maintain a lot of decorum…discipline) Whole night I was wide awake
and the thought of stepping into the college sent shivers along my spine…I
had never ever thought that I could feel bounties of pangs…I was ready before
time..Sky blue suit and matching earrings…had to look simple so that eyes of
seniors could not locate me in the crowds
“Maa,
Bye…I am leaving Maa,”…and I rushed out…”Divya, Divya…Wait wait…it’s
your first day, my mother too rushed behind me in the garden and said,
see…it’s your first day…don’t answer back the seniors…be calm…if anyone
passes any comments..Don’t react…blah blah blah…Maa said…always ready
with innumerable do’s and don’ts (hidayat)
Bye…I am leaving Maa,”…and I rushed out…”Divya, Divya…Wait wait…it’s
your first day, my mother too rushed behind me in the garden and said,
see…it’s your first day…don’t answer back the seniors…be calm…if anyone
passes any comments..Don’t react…blah blah blah…Maa said…always ready
with innumerable do’s and don’ts (hidayat)
Ok…Ok
baba…maa cool…I know I know…gave a peck on her cheek…it was my way of
expression which always proved to win her heart…she was golden
hearted…mild…very understanding and ever ready to help…I was her first
love, she always said.
baba…maa cool…I know I know…gave a peck on her cheek…it was my way of
expression which always proved to win her heart…she was golden
hearted…mild…very understanding and ever ready to help…I was her first
love, she always said.
I
was walking towards my college…first day…My heart beats were thumping in my
rib cage….I felt as if My cheeks were burning and this sensation reddened my
face which added more luminance to my looks…this was not my feeling…my well
wishers , friends and my sweet mom always remarked..”Divya…u look beautiful
when ur nervous…” I was inside the
campus…huge campus sprawled over acres…hustle bustle all around…whole
campus appeared colourful…one could easily make out the fresher’s…all very
conscious…soft spoken and disciplined…rare thing found in colleges ..The seniors moving all around;boys and gals searching a
prey in the crowd…I was slowly advancing towards notice board to find out my
subject’s building …Boy of Six feet stature stood in front of me stopping my
way..cold shiver ran thru my veins and I felt my knees weak to move further…
was walking towards my college…first day…My heart beats were thumping in my
rib cage….I felt as if My cheeks were burning and this sensation reddened my
face which added more luminance to my looks…this was not my feeling…my well
wishers , friends and my sweet mom always remarked..”Divya…u look beautiful
when ur nervous…” I was inside the
campus…huge campus sprawled over acres…hustle bustle all around…whole
campus appeared colourful…one could easily make out the fresher’s…all very
conscious…soft spoken and disciplined…rare thing found in colleges ..The seniors moving all around;boys and gals searching a
prey in the crowd…I was slowly advancing towards notice board to find out my
subject’s building …Boy of Six feet stature stood in front of me stopping my
way..cold shiver ran thru my veins and I felt my knees weak to move further…
“Why in a hurry babe…” a hoarse voice broke the silence….”introduce yourself
baby…”a crowd of about ten – fifteen seniors…boys and gals surrounded
me…It appeared as if they were waiting for this moment since long…my cheeks
and ears were burning…The tall boy told their friends, “friends..Are u all ready …”
“yes…”they sang in unison…”come on baby…now tell us about
yourself…what u want us to call…what u have prepared for this day…first
day at college…” I stood standstill…I felt numb
one of them said…”come on…start u won’t be spared the long u keep us
waiting more troubles Ur inviting…haha haha” others laughed too.
baby…”a crowd of about ten – fifteen seniors…boys and gals surrounded
me…It appeared as if they were waiting for this moment since long…my cheeks
and ears were burning…The tall boy told their friends, “friends..Are u all ready …”
“yes…”they sang in unison…”come on baby…now tell us about
yourself…what u want us to call…what u have prepared for this day…first
day at college…” I stood standstill…I felt numb
one of them said…”come on…start u won’t be spared the long u keep us
waiting more troubles Ur inviting…haha haha” others laughed too.
“I
am divya…with subject Psychology…blah blah blah…” what I said I too did
not know just that I was in speed of 100/min.”
am divya…with subject Psychology…blah blah blah…” what I said I too did
not know just that I was in speed of 100/min.”
“So
she is super express…someone expressed…but we could not make out what u
said…speak slowly like good’s train stressing each word “I was taken
aback…I myself did not know what I had said except for my name…I felt like
crying but held myself.
she is super express…someone expressed…but we could not make out what u
said…speak slowly like good’s train stressing each word “I was taken
aback…I myself did not know what I had said except for my name…I felt like
crying but held myself.
“I
am Divya of Pune with subject Psychology….I like this
college……”could not utter a word more…I was on the verge of
crying…tears flooded my eyes and blurred my vision & I pleaded god to
help me so that tears don’t roll over…the eyes of all of them was tearing
me…I could not stand their glance…boy who had stopped me whispered slowly
near my ears…”I can help u but you have to do a favour.”
am Divya of Pune with subject Psychology….I like this
college……”could not utter a word more…I was on the verge of
crying…tears flooded my eyes and blurred my vision & I pleaded god to
help me so that tears don’t roll over…the eyes of all of them was tearing
me…I could not stand their glance…boy who had stopped me whispered slowly
near my ears…”I can help u but you have to do a favour.”
“Favour…”.I
was trembling from within and praying to god to help me out…The tall boy took
my silence as my acceptance…”friends…leave her today…she will prepare
herself and answer all your questions..”
was trembling from within and praying to god to help me out…The tall boy took
my silence as my acceptance…”friends…leave her today…she will prepare
herself and answer all your questions..”
All
of them were astonished at his behaviour but no one said anything. He was the
monitor of his batch or people obeyed him…Whatsoever be the reason all
drifted slowly in all directions but this boy was stood there. I was feeling
helpless and the word favour was knocking me from within. I did not know what
held in store for me…seconds were like hours…I took a step forward….”wait
baby…u have been saved by me so where’s my favour “, for the first time in
half an hour , I glanced at him…broad shoulders, tall and good looking..my
heart beat faster, I guess even he could hear my heart beats…”calm
Divya…nothing unusual is my demand , a date with you that’s all “
of them were astonished at his behaviour but no one said anything. He was the
monitor of his batch or people obeyed him…Whatsoever be the reason all
drifted slowly in all directions but this boy was stood there. I was feeling
helpless and the word favour was knocking me from within. I did not know what
held in store for me…seconds were like hours…I took a step forward….”wait
baby…u have been saved by me so where’s my favour “, for the first time in
half an hour , I glanced at him…broad shoulders, tall and good looking..my
heart beat faster, I guess even he could hear my heart beats…”calm
Divya…nothing unusual is my demand , a date with you that’s all “
It
pierced my eardrums felt as if hot oil has been poured mercilessly…”nothing
unusual” I irked…what he thinks of himself first day he is asking to go on a date…he
does not even know me…it means this is his usual chore..Making advances to
girl for a date…not fair…I mumbled“Good day baby…u look beautiful…stolen my heart at first glance…first day of
your college.”..I thought was it a movie first day first show what he thinks of
himself..Blah blah blah…”remember my favour…no one will touch you in this
campus…now you are mine…”, he said with utter confidence.
pierced my eardrums felt as if hot oil has been poured mercilessly…”nothing
unusual” I irked…what he thinks of himself first day he is asking to go on a date…he
does not even know me…it means this is his usual chore..Making advances to
girl for a date…not fair…I mumbled“Good day baby…u look beautiful…stolen my heart at first glance…first day of
your college.”..I thought was it a movie first day first show what he thinks of
himself..Blah blah blah…”remember my favour…no one will touch you in this
campus…now you are mine…”, he said with utter confidence.
I
stood aghast, my knees going weak…felt as if I will fall down…few minutes
after…I felt silence near me…I moved my head and found myself standing
alone…I hurried towards the notice board…huge crowd all to one
destination..Notice board…if they would have queued then it would have been
easy for all…but this is our country India…who damn cares…already I was
stressed so I stood sideways waiting for my turn to come…but I did not feel
feasible. I thought better to enquire directly in office rather than falling on
one another or waiting for my turn…
stood aghast, my knees going weak…felt as if I will fall down…few minutes
after…I felt silence near me…I moved my head and found myself standing
alone…I hurried towards the notice board…huge crowd all to one
destination..Notice board…if they would have queued then it would have been
easy for all…but this is our country India…who damn cares…already I was
stressed so I stood sideways waiting for my turn to come…but I did not feel
feasible. I thought better to enquire directly in office rather than falling on
one another or waiting for my turn…
I
was looking hither thither to see if I
can find any acquaintance of mine…I found pair of eyes staring at me…the
same boy who had intercepted my way…I felt a bit uneasy and helpless and
tried to look the other way…it’s human instinct the more you try to ignore
but attention is naturally drawn towards even if one does not wish to, same was
the case with me today…heavy crowd but all unknown faces…first day of
college life …eagerness had taken back seat….I saw Priyanka in the ground ,
felt bit relieved she was not very close but still we were acquainted with each
other and at a place where no one seems to be your own then even distant ones
feels to be close..Human instinct!
was looking hither thither to see if I
can find any acquaintance of mine…I found pair of eyes staring at me…the
same boy who had intercepted my way…I felt a bit uneasy and helpless and
tried to look the other way…it’s human instinct the more you try to ignore
but attention is naturally drawn towards even if one does not wish to, same was
the case with me today…heavy crowd but all unknown faces…first day of
college life …eagerness had taken back seat….I saw Priyanka in the ground ,
felt bit relieved she was not very close but still we were acquainted with each
other and at a place where no one seems to be your own then even distant ones
feels to be close..Human instinct!
I
sighed with relief and walked to Priyanka. She too was happy to find me.
sighed with relief and walked to Priyanka. She too was happy to find me.
“What
a pleasant surprise, How are you, Divya”
a pleasant surprise, How are you, Divya”
“I
am fine and very relieved to find you Priyanka…I was feeling lonely and
Almighty listened to my prayers, I believe.”
am fine and very relieved to find you Priyanka…I was feeling lonely and
Almighty listened to my prayers, I believe.”
“Is
anything bothering you…r u okay…” she expressed her concern.
anything bothering you…r u okay…” she expressed her concern.
I
briefed her about the confrontation with seniors…I was perplexed but she
enjoyed and laughed at me for feeling let down for such such a minor issue.
briefed her about the confrontation with seniors…I was perplexed but she
enjoyed and laughed at me for feeling let down for such such a minor issue.
“Divya, enjoy…these days won’t return back
in life…the college life is full of freedom n enjoy at the full. Even you are
going to do the same thing with your juniors in next sem. It’s part of college
life”
in life…the college life is full of freedom n enjoy at the full. Even you are
going to do the same thing with your juniors in next sem. It’s part of college
life”
“Ragging
is not allowed in colleges these days…”
is not allowed in colleges these days…”
“Dear
this is just intro …harassing the juniors are not allowed. This way you will
develop confidence.” I didn’t mention the “favour “issue with Priyanka,
concealed it to myself…I knew Priyanka but I didn’t trust, “ his voice was
ringing in my ears.”
this is just intro …harassing the juniors are not allowed. This way you will
develop confidence.” I didn’t mention the “favour “issue with Priyanka,
concealed it to myself…I knew Priyanka but I didn’t trust, “ his voice was
ringing in my ears.”
“Chalo,
Let’s have tea at canteen…”
Let’s have tea at canteen…”
to be continued…..
