I very well know that expectations hurt and it hurts a lot…still y am
I heading in this direction….Why I want to hurt myself…numerous
queries lies ahead of me…I am marching ahead to get myself
wounded & will wound badly…I feel…that too in full
consciousness…I have asked many to be beware of this awkward &
I am myself retreating into it….it means at this point of time, I am
destined to meet the fate of pain…might be lucky that I gain instead
of pain but chances are bleak…It is not that I am expecting a
lot…just need kind attention & care that I need to make my journey
smooth and happy…few words that can balm my soul which has
withered with tough days & a touch of care can mend my ways…I
am not asking out of way….but in a short span of time, level of my
expectations has crossed the bar from a person who was completely
unfamiliar to me for the reasons unknown but the level of approach
that I met with made me weak & wary…in distress…sympathy is
taken as empathy…though I don’t wish anyone to sympathize with
me…each life faces distress at some point of time in life & when
you don’t complain for the good days then why to move back &
curse the fate for the hardship….we get wary at the minutes of
hardships which seems like ages & we start measuring the hiccups
in our journey which shows up to check your level of endurance &
adversity tests us to the core.
Many times I wonder why am I hurt at your ignorance though you
haven’t done it deliberately…you can’t be there for me all the time
which I have started nurturing in my soul…because you are not
supposed to be…you are on your duty & I agree you are
performing well…it is none of your fault…it is the fault of my
emotions which is taking toll of me & it might stand out to be
better for me if I accept the challenge but I do have the fear of
losing.
I long for a soft touch on my shoulder, a caress of care, few words
of appreciation and encouragement which can work as wonder for
me..Let the faith that I hold in my eyes be maintained…be firm in
approach but denial hurts a lot…so let the faith stand & help me
to share a happy bonding to regain myself and I am not distorted
in any ways.
I am strong enough but still I need a hug to regain my self…
